Wake up, hurriedly prepare for work, 8 hours later come home, vegetate.
Welcome to my non-existence. For the past few years, I’ve been alive but I have not been living. The day passes by and the night lingers, and it feels like part of my life has been smudged away by the end of an eraser.
A mental fog clouded my mind and my body sunk into the couch like a sack of rotting potatoes.
Each evening I would scroll away the time as the animated lightbox flashed before my eyes, as ideas floated into the current of my subconsciousness.
I still battle these desires to this day, it is a constant struggle and I dare say that it forever will be.
Desire. What is desire? The OED defines desire as a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen. Now I ask you, why does desire control our lives?
These kinds of thoughts have sparked a light within the fog of my mind. Ever since my recent life-changing camping trip, where I spent 3 days backcountry camping up a mountain with 40 pounds on my back and another 5 camping in the isolated Smokey Mountains. If you want to change your life, then do something that pushes or challenges you. The Smokey Mountains changed my life and forced my concentration on survival and appreciate what are often everyday things.
I disconnected myself from technology, immersed in mother Earth in all her beauty and everything was in full harmony. My usual stomach pains, body aches, and headaches ceased to exist. As if the bag of rotten potatoes magically sprouted and blossomed into new life and beauty.
Potato Flower. Photo Credit: Keith Weller, en.wikipedia.org
The flowers of potatoes are quite pretty, aren’t they?
As mentioned before, I still struggle with this battle, but one thing has changed. Each morning when I think of the day and what I will accomplish, instead of continuously saying “I’m going to rest a little longer”, I internally yell at myself “KAT STOP LOOKING AT YOUR PHONE AND GET UP!”.
This is my secret, my prized idea that no one else has ever dreamt before–yeah right.
If unproductive thoughts flow through your consciousness then those thoughts will continue propelling into reality.
This also can be said about positive thoughts. If positive thoughts flow through your consciousness then those thoughts eventually become reality.
When tasks linger within my mind for a long time it makes me anxious and I don’t find satisfaction until the task is complete, and oh is that feeling such a relief.
I cannot depend on my power of thought to overcome these poor habits. Removing technology is necessary for me since I often scroll through other people’s ideas for countless hours without grasping the memory to serve me later.
Another key component has been keeping up with chores, decluttering (donating mass amounts of crap I’ve collected through the years), reading more, spending time outdoors and enjoying cat naps during the day.
What’s the longest you’ve disconnected from technology? Can you go without social media or T.V. for an hour?
Title Photo Courtesy of ziggy1, istock.com